Codependency Co-Addiction - The Dance

The "dance" of codependency requires two people:that they will be able to control this person and be
the pleaser/fixer and the taker/controller. Thisable to choose and control the dancing experience.
inherently dysfunctional dance can only happen withAll codependents want balance in their relationships,
one partner who is a codependent and anotherbut seem to consistently choose a partner who leads
partner who is a narcissist (abuser or addict).them to chaos and resentment. When given a
Codependents do not know how to emotionallychance to stop dancing with their narcissistic partner,
disconnect or avoid significant relationships withor comfortably sit out the dance until someone
individuals who are selfish, controlling, and harmful tohealthy comes around, they choose to continue to
them. They find partners who are experienced withdance. The codependent dares not to leave their
their dance style: a dance that begins as thrilling andnarcissistic dance partner because their lack of
exciting, but ends up rife with drama, conflict, andself-esteem and low sense of self-worth manifests
feelings of being trapped.into the fear of being alone. Being alone is equivalent
When a codependent and narcissist come together into feeling lonely, and loneliness is an intolerable feeling
a relationship, their "dance," unfolds flawlessly: thefor a codependent.
narcissistic partner maintains the lead and theWithout self-esteem or feelings of personal power,
codependent follows. Because the codependent givesthe codependent does not know how to choose
up their power, the dance is perfectly coordinated: nohealthy (mutually giving) partners. Their inability to find
one gets their toes stepped on.a healthy partner is usually related to an unconscious
Typically, codependents give of themselves muchmotivation to find a person who is familiar...someone
more than their partners give to them. As awho reminds them of their powerless childhood. Many
"generous" but bitter partner, they seem to be stuckcodependents come from families in which they were
on the dance floor, always waiting for "next song," atchildren of parents who were also experts at the
which time their partner will finally understand theirdance. Their fear of being alone, compulsion to
needs. The codependent confuses care-taking andcontrol and fix at any cost, and comfort in their role
sacrifice with love and responsibility. Although theyas the martyr who is endlessly loving, devoted, and
are proud of their self-described strength,patient, is a result of roles they observed early on in
unselfishness, and endless compassion, they end uptheir childhood.
feeling deflated, empty, and yearning to be loved,No matter how often the codependent tries to avoid
but angry that they are not. They are essentially"unhealthy" partners, they find themselves
stuck in a pattern of giving and sacrificing, withoutconsistently on the dance floor dancing to different
the potential of receiving the same from theirsongs, but with the same dance partner. Through
partner. When they dance, they often pretend topsychotherapy and, perhaps, a 12-step recovery
enjoy the dance, but usually hide their feelings ofprogram, the codependent begins to recognize that
bitterness, sadness, and loneliness.their dream to dance the grand dance of love,
The codependent's fears and insecurities create areciprocity, and mutuality, is indeed possible. Through
sense of pessimism and doubt over ever finding atherapy and/or change of lifestyle, they build
healthy partner, someone who could love them forself-esteem, personal power, and hope to finally
who they are versus what they can do. Naturally, thedance with partners who are willing and capable to
narcissist is attracted to the codependent's lack ofshare the lead, communicate their movements, and
self-worth and low self-esteem. They intuitively knowpursue a shared rhythm.